In Defense Of My Porn Brothers & Sisters

I got an invite from my friend Andrew to go to Dance 208 at the LGBT Center in NYC. When I got home, I checked my email to find this in my Bulk folder with the subject line, "Tre-X: You prosistutes are hilarious". I opened the email to find this:

Deren Hills <#####> wrote:

I was reading your blog and you "porn stars" crack me up sometimes. You guys are legal PROSTITUTES, and you really seem to think that you really are somehow a "celebrity". I never understood that. There's is nothing glamorous about being called in by some pimp (porn company) to suck a dick for $500 and then to go home. Why are you guys so delusional? Do you desire to make your work seem more upstanding in order to evade depression from the whoring? I really never understood that. Time after time after time i've seen hookers like you get into porn and start slutting away, AND YOU ALL REALLY BELIEVE THAT YOU'RE FAMOUS OR SOMEONE TO BE IDOLIZED. Bending over on film isn't something to be exceptionally proud of...there's nothing artistic about getting cum blown on your face...and getting gangbanged is just hoish...not inspiring. You were a hoe/easy before porn obviously....you "love sex". But why would you think that being a dvd/online/live sex show hoe is enviable...Most porn stars are losers with problems, a lost and confused self-image, and no respect for their bodies. Would your mother, father, friends and other family memebers be proud to see you getting double penetrated? Please explain to me why porn "stars" (legal prostitues), are so self-agrandizing and detached from reality?


My response to this email was as follows:

First off, learn to use spell check. You were so busy finger-pointing that you misspelled "prostitutes" in the subject line. So with that advice in mind, know that while you really don't deserve any piece of my intellect, I will give it to you anyway.

Capitalizing the word "PROSTITUTES" doesn't insult me in anyway like you were intending, because I am more than aware that being a porn actor is a form of prostitution. Hence why I have no qualms about capitalizing it myself. Now while the basic rule of prostitution is that you get paired with whoever, I probably have not done as many movies as I could have because I fight for my human right to have a say in who I'm paired with, because viewers are looking to see me enjoying myself. And I don't want to lie about my level of enjoyment.

To answer your question as to why I should be idolized, I am unable to speak for every porn actor. For myself, I am not looking to be idolized. I just enjoy doing what I do. However, what my fans tell me that they like about me is the fact that by way of my blog, I do admit to the fact that I am a flawed individual. I am human. Your email shows you trying to avoid admitting to the fact that you are flawed as well, because every industry has people with problems, and you insist on acting as if that isn't the case in whatever industry you yourself are in.

While as far as I know I am not a big name in the adult industry, if I wasn't to some degree a celebrity, you would have no motivation to email me this tantrum of yours. You emailed me because not only am I a celebrity, but you envy my celebrity. It royally pisses you off to know that there are people out there who like to watch me do something as natural as have sex, and would probably vomit at the sight of you doing it. And not because of your body type or your face, but because your "holier-than-thou" attitude gives off an energy that would make the sight of you having sex repulsive. It may even be repulsive to your significant other, but they're too much of a coward to be that honest with you, because they get something else out of the relationship - like money. So that would make them a whore as well. The very thing you're saying you loathe so much.

And that is if you have a significant other in the 1st place. Because I wouldn't be a bit surprised if I was to find out that you constantly hire escorts, and make it your business to have them be pornstars. Anyone in the mental field will tell you, this tirade of yours might be a way of covering up the guilt you feel for what you might be doing.

In regards to my family and friends, my mother is aware of what I do and may not care much for the fact that I do porn, but she is proud of what I personally have done with it, such as my using my blog to talk about racism, and address issues like the controversy over this "pregnant man". She is proud of me for that much, as are my friends. Now while my friends may not want to watch me, because they prefer to not see me in that light, they do support the fact that I have the nerve to do what I do.

And lastly, you may not want to see it before your eyes - then don't watch. But know that sex is a beautiful thing. The act, the penetration, the semen to show the release of sexual tension - all of it is a thing of natural beauty. So what makes it "glamorous" is the fact that we performers present ourselves as tools to show that thing of natural beauty. Now while some may hold it sacred, others show it to the world. And you know what? That is the choice of the individual. So let me and my fellow performers live by our choice, as we allow you to live by yours. Thank you.

Did I tell him right? If not, then what did I say wrong? While I pose this question especially to my fellow performers, all of your feedback is greatly wanted and appreciated.