Silicone Ain't Got SHIT On Me!

This past week, on my Tumblr blog, I posted some pics of some new underwear I had bought from UnderGear. They arrived just in time for me to show them off this past Sunday when I went to Treasure Island Media and Hard Drive's Sea Tea. It was pretty much an underwear party, so of course you know that I was ready and willing to take full advantage of the clothes check they made available.

One of the porn actors on the cruise was Hot Rod. A couple of weeks ago, I saw a post suggesting that he has either butt implants or injections. I looked at the photo making the comparison, and brushed it off thinking that the posting was just some hater using the angle that Hot Rod was standing at to make a false accusation. I thought so little of it that I can't even recall where I saw the posting. I didn't share it online, nor did I even mention coming across it to friends.

So when I saw Hot Rod this past Sunday, imagine my shock when a friend standing near me look at Hot Rod's ass and said,... "Is that real?"

Since like I said, I told no one about that posting, that was the point when I began to think there was actually some truth to that posting. With that in mind, I told my friend that I have a picture of Hot Rod from last year's Folsom Street East, and that I was going to make a comparison between that pic and what I see before me on that boat. I found the picture, and I immediately saw a difference. But to be sure it wasn't some underlying cruelty at play, I googled "Hot Rod's butt implants". And that's when I saw the below image that I included in the comparison between last year and this year.

On this cruise, it turns out that me and Hot Rod had on the same brand of jockstrap, Good Devil. Even with the same colors, but in different places. While mine is the black and red that you see, his was black with a red waistband and black letters. Being the 2 porn-bodied Black guys on this cruise with the same brand of underwear made me also the target of people seeing me walk pass and saying "Is that real?"

I took it as a bittersweet compliment, because there was uncertainty in accepting it. For I was wondering was this really a compliment to me, while it was taking a shot at Hot Rod. For if Hot Rod really did have work done, then I was getting a compliment at the expense of his insecurity. OR had whatever Hot Rod might have done to himself put every porn-bodied Black guy (few as there were on this cruise) with a nice ass under suspicion, when butt implants and injections are thought to be more of a "White person thing" to do. And like I said, even more so for me, because we both had on the same brand of jockstrap.

Another thing some guys said to me when they saw Hot Rod's ass was "It seems you've got some competition."

Let me be the 1st to say that as far as I'm concerned, if the rumors are true, there is NO COMPETITION. Because for one, I'm not competing. Yes, I have competed in ass contests in bars. But as far as I knew, all of the contestants brought to the contest the butt that nature gave them. NOT the silicone ass they chose to BUY. And whether the method was implants or injections, along with that purchase comes the FEAR of the embedding into your body a MAN-MADE creation made to profit from vanity and insecurity.

If true, what was Hot Rod's purpose was for doing this? Was it for more approval of people in the porn industry? Was it taunting from porn viewers? Was it the harsh words of someone who was way more important to him than they should have been? Whether it was one or more of those possibilities, or 100% his own decision, in the end, it was Hot Rod's own insecurity that made him follow through with it, but the maliciousness of many more who will profit from and take advantage of that insecurity.

What's so saddening about this is the fact that if I'm not mistaken Hot Rod is in his mid-20s. Yet here I am, not sorry to toot my own horn in this case, because at age 41, I can pat myself on the back for having a better ass because I don't have to worry if it's going to spring a leak. My concern for my ass is a natural one...How long before nature instructs Gravity, "Bring that bitch down!", and I will have no choice but to accept it. OR if I choose not to accept it, I could look like Hot Rod and Rafael Alencar whose obvious fake asses are void of the slope that natural asses have.

And after that last sentence, it is quite obvious that I am done with trying the diplomatic approach on this, and alleging that Hot Rod had work done. Look at those 2 pics! There's no "allegedly" about it! Hot Rod took a trip somewhere, and had his ass cheeks stuffed with something.

I must admit that there are times when I see porn scenes, or live shows, and I miss the industry. However, then comes the wake-up calls. Such as sights like Hot Rod's new ass that are very likely aimed to please people who he has allowed his sense of self-worth to be overly invested in their praise, instead of him having the strength to praise and maintain the beauty God gave him.

Please take note, that my addressing this is by no means out of me trying to throw shade. It actually is me shining the light on truth on the desperate measures people in the sex industry go to please whoever. So I actually feel sorry for Hot Rod feeling the need to do this, just as I feel sorry for the females who get breast implants who also can't compete with nature. Hence why those fake breasts look like flesh-colored cereal bowls with knobs on the ends attached to their chests.

I've seen many tweets and blog posts from porn actors talking about how much weight they want to gain because they feel it's the only way for them to get more work. As much as I felt that to be true of my own physique, I NEVER went such a route to comply. I've always been secure enough with my body and self-image to know that I'm a healthy, young, sexy man who just happens to be Black. And if they can't see that, FUCK 'EM!

My credo has always been that I display my sex appeal with the body that nature gave me. Not a body I manufactured through hitting a gym and some plastic surgery just to fit some image ordained by your wannabe-God ego. If that's a problem for you, then move on from me, and find a sucker. Because the pathetic bitch you're looking for is not here. But considering the size of the porn industry with people trying to getting in, and stay in, you have plenty of sorry asses to choose from.

And I never tried putting it into words then my advice for those wanting to alter their bodies, but in light of this situation, I will close with doing so...

As long you know you're healthy, yet you allow:
some porn producer's critique of your body to mean shit;
or the critique of some porn blogger to mean shit;
or the critique of some porn viewer who you've never laid eyes on to mean shit...

Then guess what, my friend?... YOU AIN'T SHIT!!!

Now, if this makes me seem like I'm "on a high horse" since leaving the porn industry as someone once said to me, then from the looks of me, my body, and all its parts, obviously "my high horse" has served me well.

The 2012 Double Penetration Recruiter

OK guys, it's coming up on 4 ½ years since I first expressed interest in being a double-penetration bottom.

Yes, you read correct, 4 ½ years.

I was thinking that this would be the year that I would leave it to chance for this sexual fantasy to become reality. However, I had to realize that for me, leaving things to chance doesn't work out well, especially for this. For the closest I came to it coming to fruition with 2 local guys was by me writing a blog post about it. And while I did later have a 3-some with the couple that responded the very night they approached me expressing interest, I wasn't mentally ready for it, since it was so unexpected. So I take full responsibility as to why that didn't work.

Since then, that couple has parted ways and both have left New York. So now I come across pornographic pictures of double-penetrations wishing how I could experience what the bottom in the photograph is. And if that bottom is in the right mindset to realize the great position he is in at that moment - being a vessel for 2 tops to have sexual contact who wouldn't normally. But since the pictures are usually from a porn movie shoot, I doubt if he does have a clue.

Well, while I'm versatile, I've been a double penetration top, and with both my bottoming skills and studying of sex, I have more than a clue. More than a clue of how by 2 guys double penetrating me, the contour of your dicks would rub against each other. Rubbing against the cock of a top that you're attracted to, but can't otherwise have because you're both tops. And you thankfully have nowhere to go but thrust forward, backward, and sideways because your dicks are bound together by my flesh. Flesh of a man who has been brave and lustful enough to thankfully take both of you on and in simultaneously.

Bear in mind that I would like my losing my double-penetration virginity video-recorded. So sure, with the popularity of the posts in my "Double Penetration" category, I could go to a porn company. But they would likely recruit 2 porn actors who are most likely also escorts to be my 2 double-penetration tops, which would defeat my purpose. For escorts live a life of faking. So since I want to inform you after of all parties enjoying the popping of my double-penetration cherry, what's the point of buying off 2 escorts who for the sake of a buck might fake being into me, then maybe fake being into each other, which would result in giving me a fake joyful experience. Now, if there is a porn company that can guarantee that not being the case, then let's talk.

Otherwise, it is for that reason that I'll settle for 2 hot guys into me and each other who might not want to be on camera in any capacity.

So this is my 2012 recruitment post for double penetration tops. I hope the HOT guys in New York City reading this who know we mutually find each other sexy aren't that sexually prudish that they are not up to making this happen for me. That they going to be shown up be either me having an adventure when I take another trip out of the city, or even the country. Or have a vacationer or 2 who show up here in NYC?

Let's see if 2012 will be the year....

Gringo's Morning Chocolate

On a hook-up website, there was a guy who I had been considering hooking up with for some time now, but timing never seemed to work. I'm sure many of you know such a scenario where you often see him online, send him a message, and get no response, or find out later that he opened the message after you had logged off. Well, after this happening enough times, imagine my shock a couple of weeks ago when he hits me up to see if I was free that morning. I told him I was. But he seemed to have one kink that 1) I wasn't too keen on, and 2) was never spoken of in past chats...

...He said he wanted me to have a "dirty hole".

Since I by no means recall him speaking of such a kink before, while I was in shock, I knew I wasn't going to end up with shitty sheets, even though I told him "OK". I didn't even lay a towel underneath me to prepare for the possibility.

You see, I had planned on going out the night before, but then changed my mind, and had a quiet night in. However, I make it a ritual precautionary measure to "clean out before I go out". For as I've said in past posts, I never go out looking for sex, it just happens. And being aware of this, one needs to be prepared just in case sex does just happen.

SIDE NOTE: Also with that precaution in mind of sex just happening, I also carry condoms with me. So if you see me out and about, and you need one, feel free to ask me for one. If I have one, I'll gladly give you one. The most I might ask for in return is to play voyeur if your plan is to screw at that venue. Otherwise, no charge.

Anyway, with my hole being cleaned out from the night before, and eating nothing since, the dirtiest hole he was going to get was from me not showering before he arrived. And knowing that to be the case is the only reason I went along with hooking up with him. For when asked by anyone "what are you into?", I always say that I'm into just about everything EXCEPT BDSM, fisting, and scat. And this guy's request for a "dirty hole" bordered on scat.

So how was it? It was fun.
He said that he can cum quick, and being that I seem to have a tight hole that makes guys need to pace themselves, especially if they are susceptible to that, it's evident in this video as to why he never really pounded my ass non-stop at any point.

Lastly, before anyone finds themselves offended:
1) referring to the guy as "Gringo" is not a racially offensive jab. The guy himself has "gringo" as part of his screenname. And;
2) don't feel like I invaded this guy's privacy. For it was discussed before he arrived at my place about me recording, because the 1st time we ever communicated he led me to a XTube video of him fucking. And he agreed that it was OK. I just took it upon myself to conceal his face in editing.

With all that addressed, enjoy this peep into my bedroom.

On GoW: Bi-Guys Have The Floor

Tomorrow night at 10 PM EST, I'm returning for my 3rd appearance as a guest on the internet talk show, "The Gates of WiL" on NotStr8.tv. This time, I will be discussing a certain "B-word". Not "bitch". Instead, it's the "B-word" that some readers over time have hated to hear me say. Especially in regards to me identifying a certain aspect of myself....

....It's BISEXUAL.

We're going to talk about how bisexuality is perceived as a myth, why people try denying its existence, and maybe even who is in denial of how the word pertains to them, and the evidence of how it does.

PLUS, those of you who have seen me on the show in the past, know that my past appearances have been via Skype.

Not this time.

This time, I will be there in the studio LIVE.

And don't forget, there's a chatroom, and time permitting we will take one or more calls via Skype.

I hope you will join us tomorrow night. And if you can't join us the night of the live streaming, please view it on-demand soon after. Thanks.